I started Amethyst Rose New Age Products & Services (or as I lovingly refer to it: ARNAPS) in 2014 and to be honest with you I don’t recall the moment that I decided that this was going to be my work. It was all Divinely inspired, as many things have been for me over the last 10 or so years.
It all came about by a series of what I like to call divine nudges. After my separation and then divorce in 2009-10, I discovered a yearning to help women find and empower themselves, and although I didn’t know it at the time, I can now see that the seeds had been planted long ago...
And so it begins…
Looking back I can see that in the months leading up to the decision that would change my life forever, there were signs and markers that indicated that my journey to wholeness, healing and happiness was well under way.
For as long as I can remember, I have always been fascinated by the paranormal - by what can be sensed even if it cannot be proven. I’ve always felt that there had to be more to life than the day-to-day activities that had been filling my days and nights - there was always an underlying feeling of something more - something greater; there had to be a reason or purpose for being here.
Life comes crashing down...
As many women have experienced over the years - rediscovering and redefining who we are and then reclaiming our power after something as soul crushing as divorce is an enormous undertaking. We are left feeling vulnerable, hurt, confused, alone and lost in all directions of space and time. We resemble the person that we once were, but we are no longer the same, we live within that same life, yet things have drastically altered.
The transformation process had well and truly commenced. Looking back now, I’m not sure whether I was aware that I’d been offered a gift - what that gift was, I wouldn’t be sure of until some years later.
Part of me knew that the decisions I’d made up until that point had led to that experience, but to accept it, let alone acknowledge it was a completely different matter. Intellectually, I had a difficult time comprehending this. Emotionally, I was an absolute mess - I was hurt, angry, empty, lost and confused. Physically, the chronic pain that I'd been suffering became almost unbearable and it seemed that the only way to relieve it, even if only a little was to cry, and even then it only seemed to serve as a gateway to even more pain. Spiritually, well, I was about to embark upon the most magnificent journey of my life, even if I didn’t know it yet!
What I did know was that I had to grieve, I had to allow myself the time to process and BE in the emotional turmoil, as messy as that was, I had to love myself back to health and I needed to honour my needs whatever they were and no matter how often they changed. I allowed myself to watch TV until I was numb, I cried tears for what I had imagined I’d lost, and in time I began to catch my heart swelling at the possibility of new love, that this wasn’t it for me, that there was so much waiting for me, so much that I had yet to experience, and it gave me hope.
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Hope and faith restores life...
The hope and faith that was beginning to awaken within was much more powerful than the fear of what my mind could conjure up, the starting over, and even what others would say about such a short-lived marriage.
I remember reading self-help books that were fundamental in moving me from victim mode to warrior; realising that I had some say in what happened to me from that moment on. I started to read spiritual and new age books and I felt a bond develop between myself and Spirit, one that was unlike anything I’d ever experienced.
One night I poured my heart out to Mother Mary and I asked if she could give me a sign to let me know that she'd heard me - she gave me a gift, almost immediately, a physical gift that she manifested and which I have kept as a reminder of my connection with and to Mother Mary and Spirit. It helps me to remember that I am never alone, even during my darkest hours, and that I am loved and perfect just as I am, that I AM ENOUGH, just as I am.
That realisation was life-altering.
After the miracle...
Soon after this miracle, I started to receive more and more signs from Spirit and I knew then that I was going to get through this. There was something more! Something bigger than me, something that would help me move through the crap and into something beautiful, perhaps even magical.
It was around this time that I connected with my higher self and channelled something that would help me define my purpose, or a part of it at least.
Years later I began to see that I had to learn what I’d learned in the way in which I’d learned it - I cannot see how I could have discovered the person I am today without having had that experience. I’m sure that there were many roads around and through it, but this is the one that I had chosen.
My road to healing and wholeness has been long and winding, it has been filled with doubts, uncertainty and many moments of darkness, but it has also been filled with love, courage, inner strength and determination that I hadn't realised existed within me. I discovered a resilience that I wasn't aware was a part of my being, and I have drawn on this every day since, using it to propel me even further and into new and wonderful opportunities.
My purpose…
I discovered that I have what it takes, I am enough and that I can do whatever it is that I have come here to do. What I don't know, I will learn, what I already know, I can use to my advantage and it is my deepest desire to connect with and inspire women who are going through similar experiences and who are ready to reclaim their life. For those who are ready to step into the unknown and create their life on their terms, I offer myself in service.
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Your sacred space...
I will honour and lovingly guide and support you as you travel your path. I will not push you nor force you to do anything that you're not willing to do, but I will ask that you enter into this with an open heart and a willingness to allow the transformation to occur that will retrieve your essence and bring the authentic you into the world. This won't be easy, in fact there will be times when you want to call it quits, but you'll know deep within you that this just isn't a possibility. Once you cross that threshold, you'll know that there's no going back.
So what I have done, along with Spirit, is create this sacred space so that I can support you as you grow, all the while continuing my own spiritual and personal development so that I can better serve you. By creating this platform, I am able to bring you healing readings, tools, resources, sparkly delights from Mother Earth’s bosom and much more to make your transformation amazing!
I will use and share my intuitive abilities, healing modalities and life experience to support you as you empower yourself on your journey to wholeness.
"The essence of what you are is responsible for always bringing back to you
the wholeness of what you are. It pulls you into circumstances in which there are
always opportunities for healing."
'Beyond Fear', don Miguel Ruiz
This is work that can only be done by you and I understand that not everyone is ready for this.
You have two options: you can allow yourself to remain hurt and angry for the rest of your life, or you can choose to empower yourself and discover the possibilities that await you. The choice is yours.
We can never really know what lies ahead for us, but we do have the ability...and the right to make our life the best we can. We, as women owe it to ourselves, to our daughters and the generations of daughters to follow.
Namaste
Vanda xx
If you have any questions about my work or about receiving a reading, please contact me via our contact page or via email. I look forward to hearing from you!
© Vanda Costa, 16 March 2016